LETTER #18
Swedenborg Foundation sent me to you. Over the years I've been told maybe someone worked voodoo on me but with my faith I couldn't believe it. Thank you for taking the time to hear from me. VW Jan 12, 2017
VW’s inquiry began earlier with the Swedenborg Foundation who recommended she contact Sherry.
VW wrote on January 12, 2017:
Hi Sherry,
This is such a relief to be finally able to speak with someone about what I have been living with all these years and not understanding what was happening.
Over the years I've been told maybe someone worked voodoo on me but with my faith I couldn't believe it.
Thank you for taking the time to hear from me.
Respectfully
VW
Sherry’s first reply to VW was on January 13, 2017
Hi VW,
Thank you for agreeing to speak with me about your experiences, albeit via Swedenborg. In your emails to Swedenborg you wrote that you believe your purpose is to help others but you feel you are doing a lousy job of that. I understand and know exactly how you must be feeling right now.
Let's get you back on solid ground so that you may accomplish what you came here to do, okay? You already know this is going to take a lot of work on your part, and I will help you the best I can. This help will be based on my own experiences with being pretty much where you are today. Being of stubborn mind and diligence to change how you perceive the world will help tremendously. In fact, it is a requirement for yourself. The change does not come without you because no one else can "change your mind" for you. That said, there will probably be moments during our conversations when you will need to force yourself to leave your comfort zone. Of course this is a tall order for anyone, but one that will be necessary at some point in your life.
I am glad you have taken the time to watch the Swedenborg videos and read the articles I suggested to them. It shows you are serious about wanting to learn how to get out of your current rut. Some of what I will be showing you is "out of the box" but that's where you will need to go, when you are ready. If, during our conversations, I say something you cannot accept, it will be up to you to say so. I prefer that you not just agree with me blindly (for whatever reason: being polite, not wanting to rock the boat, fear of me cutting you off, etc). Rather, it is my hope that you will actually "see" through the Grand Illusion I will be presenting to you and feel it so that you know that what I may tell you is indeed real.
The only thing that will cause me to stop our conversation will be that you have chosen to not want to learn. You must know that trying to teach someone who does not want to learn is a waste of time for that person as well as for me, and I am not into wasting my time. IF this happens, there will be no judgment on my part. Rather, I will honor your choice as this is your path.
So to begin...
One of the first things you need to remember (or at least know) is that when you first arrived on Earth (the day you were born) you were perfect, pure of heart, and only had love inside of you. You trusted everything your guardians told you because you had no idea that, through their own programming, they were in the process of teaching you lies. This was not with malicious intent. This was purely because generation after generation receives the programming that says, in one form or another, that we are less than, worse than, unworthy of, great things. And that we are helpless to change our behaviors because we have no control over our thoughts and feelings. Well, surprise! All of that is a lie. This is what you will be working on as soon as you are willing to begin.
We actually learn to fear reaching our full potential in these physical bodies. We are taught that being great is actually some sort of blasphemy, which is ludicrous because it's just another lie.
The intent behind the programming is to prevent us from doing what we came here to do. Plain and simple. Those are the facts. And where we want to be, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, is beyond the programming. Even Voodoo has no power over one who gets their perception beyond the programming.
I look forward to hearing from you again VW.
Blessings,
Sherry
Conversations between VW and Sherry continued in earnest until March 2017 and then less frequently through January 2018. During that time VW learned about The That’s A Lie Program and all of Jerry Marzinsky’s information posted in his articles and videos.
Below is a summary VW wrote about her progress
printed here with her permission:
Reprogramming (Faith in action) by VW 1-28-18
“Faith in action” is a phrase I have to say describes my life's journey. Back in my early twenties I worked as a tour conductor and loved it. I enjoyed serving others and being able to help them achieve their dreams, travel was a wonderful experience for me. I knew one day I would own my own tour company.
Of course in all the excitement I mention this desire to own an agency to my then boyfriend, without thought he said it could never happen given all the reasons why. The main reason being I was not intelligent enough to carry out such a feat.
From an early age I remember loving to go to Sunday school. Apart from loving to show off the most beautiful dresses made by my mommy I love to hear the stories about people who were so humble they were overlooked by the people around them being considered dreamers.
I identified with these Bible characters because I also was a dreamer. There was a feeling inside of me that felt like a warm fire whenever I thought about God, heaven, the angels, or anything beyond what I could see.
Somehow I knew everything I learned about them was real. I never met these characters except in stories yet I could feel a connection that was stronger than the very human reality I shared with the people I knew.
I lived in a world where I felt so disconnected and alone because I couldn't share my thoughts or dreams with anyone else. I was not the kind of child who had any real interest in school as a matter of fact I hated school I was probably one of the worst students my teachers ever had to teach so much so they never really paid any attention to me.
None of this mattered because I knew somewhere down inside I was different. I just knew anything I wanted I could have if I believed it. I spent many days dreaming of all kinds of things. My academic life sucked so much that everyone thought I was hopeless and give up any hope of me even leaving elementary school.
None of this matter to me because I believed I could do anything I set my mind to. I believed in the things I couldn't see so much that they would become a reality. Whatever I wanted I only had to see it in my mind's eye and eventually it would happen.
I couldn't understand the importance of learning when I could have whatever I wanted by believing I could have it. I eventually left the tour company where I worked and started my own out of the city. Clients had to take 2 busses to come to me but refused to work with anyone else. I did great for a couple of years without any formal training all I knew was how to order tickets from the travel agents and put groups of people together to have a great experience and that's all that mattered to me.
I didn't care less about the logistics; I knew how to put a package together and just did what I knew and loved naturally. Somehow I knew that I didn't have anything to worry about. I just did whatever I believed needed to be done in the natural and allowed the rest to take care of itself.
There was something in me that made me sure that once I acted on what I wanted it was going to become a reality. Dreaming was my specialty and I loved it.
I lived in a world of make belief that was so real I could have anything I wanted. I didn't understand at the time how it worked and didn't really care. I just know I was different I lived a secret yet the most wonderful exciting life alone in a community with hundreds of people who didn't know me or even cared.
It's interesting how we live lives unaware of who we are. Unaware of what we are capable of because someone else paints a picture of what our lives are supposed to be. We're expected to go to school, get a degree, a job to pay the bills, have kids, cook, clean and repeat. Eventually somewhere along the way I bought into the lie, I bought into the struggle of wanting to fit in. I wanted to belong, I needed to be needed, I needed love so much I gave up my dreams.
From there I started on a downward, spiral. Life for me became unnecessary; I just did what everyone else around me was doing just existing. I got into meaningless Relationships, got jobs just for money, and became a mother because it was expected.
Regardless of the life I lived, I still knew I was different. Once I gave into the expectation of others, my life became a disaster and I didn't care.
I started making decisions because they were expected of me not because I wanted to make them. With every decision came a disaster which seemed to follow me around like a big dark cloud. My existence became more and more meaningless to me from then on. I felt like there was no escaping the prison that held me captive. From the freedom of self expression, I felt like I didn't have a reason to live, I just existed because I couldn't take my own life. I became a coward, I became like everyone else around me.
I began to live a crippling life of fear, fear of decision making, fear of believing anything I did or believed wasn't real. Fear became so strong in my life I was even afraid to be afraid. I now know that fear is a demon, once it takes hold, it squeezes every ounce of faith out of its host.
I don't even remember how in the world I went from living a life of faith, to living a life of fear, so strong that hiding in the shadows was my only escape. The need for love is more powerful than we understand or even imagine. This love, this desire to be needed, this desire to be one of the pack, is absolutely dangerous in so many ways, on so many levels. Our perception of love is so wrong; it causes us to act in the most destructive manner to ourselves and the people around us.
Turning my back on my faith, the things I believed in that I couldn't see, to fit in was the beginning of a life that I would live to regret for many years. I became indecisive to the point that I began to develop a multitude of conflicting thoughts in my head. These thoughts became so many and so chaotic I developed the art of beginning projects and never finishing any of them.
I stopped being successful at anything, the more thoughts or ideas that came into my head the more unfinished goals would be abandon. Failure became so prominent in my life I began to believe whatever it was that made my faith, so strong in the past was gone.
In 2003 at the age of 36 I had to reach back inside myself and call out to the same source that provided me the faith I needed to do whatever I needed to do. I realized if I didn't do something I would lose my own life and my family depended on me. It's amazing how many thoughts developed in my head because I stopped believing in myself. Thoughts that would not allow me to be organized, thoughts that were so chaotic I became anxious and couldn't do anything for myself.
I started developing suicidal thoughts, scary thoughts; I knew I had to do something. I knew I had to find help I knew I couldn't do this on my own.
I literally stopped going to church because the church became superficial; it wasn't doing anything for me. I sought out help online and found Emanuel Swedenborg. They introduced me to Sherry Swiney, who taught me that "anything that's real is love, if it isn't love, it isn't real, it's an illusion and it’s a lie". Once I grasped this knowledge, this concept, my entire life took shape; it took form again, and became real.
She taught me I needed to reprogram program my mind, with positive affirmations. Since I started on this track my life has changed so much; people, circumstances and things have no power over who I am. Reprogramming is a process it takes time but becoming aware and awakened is the most powerful experience.
I'm aware now that I'm a co-creator, if I believe in myself I can be the change I want to see in the world.
I'm still learning how to ignore the voices in my head that aren't my own thoughts. I'm aware now that when my body become tensed or stressed I need to pay attention to what I'm thinking and focus on my own intentions.
Today I look forward to one day becoming a minister with the “Center for Spiritual Living”. Learning how to focus on my own thoughts and intentions gave me back the power to co-create in a vast and wonderful universe.